Erin Michelle Smith

I started off not wanting to get out of bed. I had a rough night last night. Having fairly recently integrated my alters it makes me feel lonely. It's hard to describe without experiencing it. The night usually belonged to Aaron - he'd think his wild scientific thoughts, write his music or just play the piano, think of things that I just don't feel like I need to. I'm more concerned now with day-to-day things... like what chores I didn't get done. That honestly probably started it all. It's [...]

Content warning: childhood sexual abuse, dissociation Alone, confused    Tired of being used    But what can I do    I'm addicted to you We live in a reality    Without any real honesty    Where white is blue    And we've all learned how to screw Can you see    The hypocrisy in me    yes it's true    I can lie to you too I was only seven    So I made her in my mind    To smile through the sickness    To carry what was mine Do you remember    Ice cream in December    For two long years words [...]

Upon the end of night's darkest hours A sleepy sun boldly climbed above eastern mountain towers To softly touch those angry angels of white floating overhead With fiery fingers painted different shades of red And while I silently slept ever so softly My mind drifted drowsily, fastly fading in and out of a rude reality When suddenly, upon the weary wings of a cold morning breeze Came the sweet sounds of a mournful melody that pierced the serene silence with wondrous ease Through heavy haze my [...]